From Great Sin to Great Love
This Systems Engineering Excursion is a soul’s raw and reverent encounter with the living God. It traces the journey from unworthiness and repentance to awe-filled surrender before Divine Majesty. Merging emotion with profound truths, it draws upon the reality of God’s presence, the humility of man, and the immensity of Divine Love. Echoing the mysticism of the saints, the piece serves as both a personal cry and a universal call to faith, trust, and total self-offering. It is a deeply contemplative expression of longing for union with God through grace, prayer, and sacrifice.
Am I really in Your presence?
You wouldn’t have called me to You if You weren’t here.
How could You permit me, so low, so weak, broken by sin,
To be in Your presence, laying Your eyes on me.
Oh Lord Almighty God, who am I to receive Your gaze,
To be the subject of Your attention,
To be the object of Your care?
You who are all Truth, all Reality,
Would never trick me Yourself.
You Whose only incapability is to be anti-You
You, the Man of His Word, said “I am with you always”
So I believe, and I am here with You now.
Oh Great One, can I look upon You?
You are so close, yet still so far away.
I cannot see You, Your light is blindingly bright.
If only I could see Your face,
And oh, if only I could see in Your eyes that You love me.
I am collapsing in Your presence Almighty One.
Take me in Your arms my God,
Like a little child I lift my arms up to You…
But You are so high and mighty, please take pity on me.
I hear that You will not refuse a humble and contrite heart.
I believe You are Goodness and Love Itself.
You see me, my soul and every thought,
Every second of my life’s story is ever before You.
You are All that I want, Take my shredded heart,
Take it right out of me, and remove the shrapnel,
Cleanse the impurities, I want nothing that is not of You.
I give You full and complete permission to overtake me.
My greatest desire and singular will is to have You
Master of my life, take me and make me Yours
Make me anything and everything You want for Your Glory.
Use me for the lowest, the greatest, My life belongs to You.
I want nothing more than to know that I’m in Your hands,
With every interior and exterior movement directed by You.
I see Your great figure before me, You Who commands Love.
You keep Your Power hidden throughout most of history,
As You know most would die or obey out of fear,
Or be good out of selfishness, if they saw Your Power.
But they stupidly prefer fleeting fun and food over their God,
And no matter what they create as the god of their life,
It’s strength lies only in leading them to pain and misery.
I see Your almighty hand extending down towards me,
Lower and Lower, like a dream I see You reaching down,
Your Face still unbelievably high above me, out of my view.
Your powerful hand coming closer to me, so low and small
Breathlessly cinematic in its dramatic motion swooping down
Now impossibly low. I’m no longer standing on the ground.
This is not just a dream, this is My God, King of the Universe.
You who spins & palms the planets like they weigh nothing,
How could You stoop so low, how could You lower Yourself,
Humbling Yourself to reach down in tender care for me?
I’ve betrayed You, turned my back on You and Your Love.
I repeatedly fail You in countless ways & can’t get it right.
I’m suddenly lifted up by Your strong arm into another realm.
I am in ecstasy, with warm tears streaming down my face.
You who are incapable of acting against Your will,
You who made me to know, love, and serve You.
I trust that You will not reject my sincere offering, but rather,
In Your Love and Goodness, mold me into whatever You Will.
You desire that I should unite my life to You, Powerful One,
Whose Presence makes demons tremble and flee with fear,
Granting Your friends power to banish evil from their midst.
Oh God, how sweet is Your Love for me the unworthy one.
How unfathomable Your tender kindness and sacrificial care,
Beyond what any human has ever had or felt for their child.
You have given me so much & though I’ve failed to give back
What You demand innately as God, You continue to gift me
With another chance, upholding my life, inviting me to unite
With You in Your Son, the Ultimate and Eternal Sacrifice…
He Who walked the earth not only then, but right now.
Who willingly agreed to unprecedented and unmatched
Public humiliation, insults and false accusations.
He Who said yes to being tied up for all to witness
Being stripped of His dignity, being stripped of His skin,
He who bled more and suffered more than humanly possible,
Not just any blood, but the blood of God, all for me.
He Who already suffered this moment with me and for me,
That I might find Him here in my desolation and emptiness.
Not just that I might understand a small fraction
Of the pain that He endured, but that I may choose Faith
& Take Hope, that I may then see and understand the Truth,
That the most powerful force in all of human history is
The Power of prayer joined with sacrifice.
Who is like God? I can’t begin to comprehend Love so great.
What Love is this? So immense as to stoop so low for me?
This selfless Love, innate to the Only One Who is complete,
Needing not I or anyone else, but created us to share His Joy,
His Pleasure, His Paradise if we choose Him wholeheartedly.
He swiftly, almost desperately draws me up into His Arms,
He’s been waiting with earnest desire to share His Love.
You have heard my plea, accepted my life into Your hands.
I claim my life for You, my God, please claim me as Yours.
There could be no greater honor, no greater purpose or drive,
Than to have a personal, intimate bond with You, the One,
Most Powerful Force in Existence, make me resemble You.
I abhor all sin & reject anything that would bar me from You.
Please do not ever let me out of Your powerful grasp.
You Who have given me so much, despite my squandering,
You now are giving me the ability to try again, to repair,
To make restitution & do good in life. I still have so much.
Throughout the ages others have endured much worse.
I could be hopelessly burning in hell for all eternity.
But I’m here facing You, and what You offer me now is worth
More than earthly fortune or worldly glory could ever rival.
God Show me the Truth, show me my sins, my faults,
That I may not be blind and bound by them any longer.
And now You open my eyes and offer me strength,
That I may be free of them. Never have I felt more free.
Never have I been more acutely aware of Your Love for me,
As when I see myself before Your Greatness and Beauty.
My lowliness and ugliness. Never have I felt such Love.
And the more that I see the greatness of the sin in me,
The more I am convicted of Your Greatness & kindness
And the more I see the vast discrepancy between You and I,
The more I see the reality of the Greatness of Your Love.
You stoop so low, down to reach me, wretched as I am.
I see the unfathomable love & care that exists in that action,
& how the more serious I view my sins, the greater the Love.
You warn me “be careful then how you hear”
For usually the way we want to hear it isn’t how we should.
I must hear Your words convicting me of my own sin,
Leaving others and their sins between them and God,
For You are Justice Itself, and all mercy is Yours to give
To those who come to You in reality… not a wish, but a way…
A journey of a lifetime, of repentance & repeated returning.
Always beginning with the Truth, the reality
That I, so insufficient, so sinful, in such desperate need,
With my arms yearning and seeking Your grasp on me,
With my feet using the earth & its things as a springboard,
With my heart so desperately desiring only God, none else,
Can Have Faith that a contrite heart will not be refused…
A heart and soul relinquished to God will be transformed
Into the greatest version of that oneself that is possible,
Into a manifestation of the will of the Almighty One,
Into a work of Love, a novel Masterpiece,
Never before known or seen in all of human history…
An extension of His All-Powerful hand acting
Through one man’s life. Have no fear, no doubt of His Power.
Only Fear Him… what you will face if you refuse God today.
Come, He calls, He Yearns, He waits, He welcomes.
He is God, He is not One to be refused. Not now, not ever.
Your life will glorify Him someday, whether in Hell-
Suffering justice you owe Him & refused to pay Him in life,
Or in Heaven, rejoicing in His Greatness that He worked
Throughout the ages, including His Greatness He empowered
You with on earth. Come now, Let the Truth set you free.
Jesus asks Simon the Pharisee: “A certain creditor had two debtors… Which of them will love him more?” Simon answers: “The one, I suppose, for whom he forgave more.” Jesus said to him, “You have judged rightly.” – Luke 7:41–43
Do you view yourself as having much debt owed to the Master? Don’t cheat yourself out of the forgiveness and friendship He offers to those who repent and choose to walk with Him.
© 2025 Angela Miely. All rights reserved.
Published by XSE Self Sculpt™, employing Independent Integration Systems Engineering principles to support human integrity, strength, and advancement.
For educational and self-development purposes only. Not intended as medical, therapeutic, or psychological treatment.